Alright, it\'s my first time posting, but I\'ve been reading these boards for almost a year.
Anyways, the story: My on-again, off-again, boyfriend of one year is moving away, very soon. This was my first serious boyfriend, we lost our virginities to each other, and he is my first love. He\'s moving about 4 hours away, and while this doesn\'t seem like much to many, I will be overseas in Europe for the next 6 months, and we both agreed that for the time being, we aren\'t officially together anymore. Other than the fact that he\'s moving, there are no other problems.
However, before he moves, he has been working almost nonstop to save money for University, so for the past month we were going out, I only saw him a couple of times because he lives in another town. The last time I saw him, we had our talk about what was going on, and our decision to remain very close friends, blah, blah, blah. I thought that would be the last time I would see him, but I recently got panicked, and told him I had to see him one last time. He asked Why? and I didn\'t get a chance to respond before his line was disconnected for good.
The reason I think he hesitates to see me again is because he has a very hard time showing deep emotions. He can tell me things online, but he has a hard time saying his feelings. I think what he is most scared of is crying in front of me, he tries to be a big tough guy.
Anyways, my question is this: I have driven out to his house (1/2 hour away) to try to see him before he leaves, but I never catch him.(ONe of his family members is very ill, so he\'s not at home all the time). I told him this that I tried to see him, and he joked and said I was a freak, yet he still tries to avoid seeing me. MY question is, would you find my behaviour flattering, my determination to just see him one last time, or stalker-scary?
I love this boy, on my way to try to see him today, I got a speeding ticket! Please tell me what you guys think.
